so much sorting through of my heart this week!
i might fill up this journal before christmas day.
i would highly recommend taking a sabbatical away from the world the way i have been doing the past week or so. not disappearing from society forever, just dipping below the radar for a bit. long enough to regain perspective, to dig through the many layers, deep down to the true issues of the heart. long enough to hear from God. i have been trying to keep things quiet enough to hear what He might have to say, rather than merely granting Him a timeframe of roughly 15-30 minutes every morning, usually over breakfast, to speak up. "speak now, God, or forever hold your peace!" so goes the daily routine.
not this week. and i know i joke that i have a lot of feelings...but i have a lot of feelings. and thoughts and struggles. because i am human, i get distracted, i am broken. perhaps someone out there can identify with those statements. and i can't say that i have had a miraculous breakthrough (yet), but nonetheless it feels good to be sorting through it all. to acknowledge it and be able to give a name to the things going on inside of me. i have been letting a lot of other people tell me who i am and how i feel. i needed to take a look for myself. and it feels right to do.
i'm sorry this is vague. actually, i'm not. you can only do so much soul-baring on the internet. but there's that.
here's to college students soul-searching over christmas break, eh? surely i'm not the only one?