Tuesday, January 11, 2011

hiding.

i have been more reclusive this year than i expected to be.  i think of myself as someone who likes people and laughter and loud jokes--and i do love those things--but i find myself hiding away in places where it is quiet more frequently than i would have guessed.  maybe this realization has something to do with the fact that i am living with four wonderful girls who all practice spontaneity and carpe diem with much more ease than i do.  it seems they do not live their lives by sticky note schedules the way i do.  nonetheless, it is surprising to realize how natural introspection feels to me lately.  i like being downstairs, holed up in my room, hearing the boisterous laughter and snippets of conversation drifting down, but i'm not always comfortable participating in the conversation.

perhaps it is just a season.  we shall see.  i just hope the people i love know i cherish their company, even as i seek to spend a good deal of my time alone.

(from birthday #22)

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