we walk like ghosts upon the earth
the ground it groans
how long till you save us all?
i groan, i wait anxiously to arrive, i am knit back together only to find myself wrenched back apart. i learn and forget and must remember it all over again. i want to be well but it hurts to heal. i find comfort in the one who calls his burden light because i choose a heavy load. i see the light and i rejoice, but i am learning the truth, the beauty, in this, too: "from dust you came, to dust you will return." i feel the dust, feel the cracking and the aching and i am angry with myself for my shortcomings. i remember again that i cannot heal myself and i return to the one who is able; sometimes i come begrudgingly, but find life and hope when i look beyond myself. it is difficult, it requires endurance and patience, and i lack these things too often. i ache to be in my truest form but being born is not a tidy process.
we must experience the death to also experience the resurrection. it is fitting that i remember this during the lenten season.
how long will you wait?
turn your face to me
lyrics by gungor.